It happened. At my aunt’s house. It’s the day after Eid-ul-fitr and we are all together. I bought her coffee and made it the way she liked it and dropped it off to her. I covered her grave in flowers and tears today.
It wasn’t as momentous as I expected. It was more confusion as we had nothing planned. I slept a lot. Need to process today and will edit the post. Right now, just looking forward to sleep and my girls day tomorrow.
Edit day has arrived bitches! I am sat at my dad’s kitchen table. Toggling between work, travel plans, and heartache.
Let me reflect on this year the most efficient way I know how; a list!
- Fell of conditional love
- Reminded that friendship can be conditional too
- Realized how much love I have in my life
- Allowed people into my heart; for better and for worse
- Found out what a narcissist is and met a few
- Currently searching for a 12-step tiktok detox program (send help)
- Went to more tarot readers than doctors
- Realized I too am a fuck boy
- Realized men are just as emotional as women and if a guy can’t be soft with you, he does not like you at all
- Learning to say no
- Getting comfortable with being disliked
- Learned I am enough at work, with my friends, and family
- Completed YTT
- Found a new love of writing through personal essays
- Found out one of the hardest parts of grief is watching the people you love in pain and you can’t do anything
Maybe I need an edit part II.